I am at that time of life where my wife oft inquires if I am certain I do not want some kind of memorial service or a celebration of “the life of” kind of party. Each time I reiterate my one desire … the only thing I want. That one thing is for her to do all she can … short of an outright purchase … to see to it that my obituary appears in the New York Times. That’s it. It is the only memoriam I want. That is how highly I regard that publication.
I was famous enough thirty years ago to have my obit in the
Times be all but an absolute certainty. Now, past my prime … professionally as
well as personally … that publication’s interest might well be in doubt.
When I write how I cherish responses to my Notes From A
Warm Island as if they were reviews from that revered New York publication,
now you might have a fuller appreciation of just how important your comments
are to me.
Still, as much as I love to read those responses, my
“policy” is to not respond but rather to file. True, occasionally, I break my
own rule, but it is rare when I do so. Today features a major exception. I am
compelled to do even more that simply respond because of an email from an old
friend, actor Stephen Macht.
More than a friend or an actor, Mr. Macht was the star of my
pilot for ABC’s, American Dream about which much is written in my
forthcoming tome, Before and After Cagney & Lacey; for multiple
seasons he was Christine Cagney’s serious boyfriend, he also played Sharon’s
leading man in James Michener’s Centennial, written and produced by John
Wilder, and he was the male lead in the San Francisco production of the play A
Round Heeled Woman, starring Sharon and based on the best-selling
novel by Jane Juska. You might also remember him as the Harvard ethics
professor who in the TV series, Suits, gave such a tough time to the
leading man (played by Stephen’s son, Gabriel Macht). In his spare time,
Stephen studied to become a Rabbi, subsequently presiding over the marriage of
Torrie Rosenzweig, the youngest of my three daughters, to her husband of over
10 years, John Coldiron.
Stephen is also a reader of these Notes From a Warm
Island who wrote me about my article on the movie, The Way We Were, wherein
I referenced my own remembrances of the McCarthy era which was the backbone of
the Arthur Laurents’ screenplay of that fabulous film. Here is what Stephen
Macht wrote, unedited, exactly as he sent it to me:
My Father Warned Me About McCarthy
I was eight years old.
My father stood in front of our black-and-white television
and pointed at the screen.
On it was Senator Joseph McCarthy.
Without taking his eyes off him, he said quietly,
“Stevie… never let a man like that gain power.”
I didn’t ask why.
I didn’t understand what he meant.
I simply knew…
my father was afraid.
Years later I learned why.
My father had been one of the young lawyers who joined
Franklin Roosevelt’s New Deal. Working for the National Labor Relations Board,
he believed that the rule of law rested upon something fragile:
Facts.
Evidence.
Due process.
He understood that when accusation replaces proof, when
intimidation replaces persuasion, when fear replaces judgment, democracy begins
to lose its footing.
An eight-year-old cannot understand constitutional law.
But a child can recognize moral seriousness.
The warning entered me…
long before its meaning did.
Decades passed.
I was cast as John Proctor in Arthur Miller’s The
Crucible at the Stratford Shakespeare Festival in
Ontario, Canada.
Every night I searched for the man beneath Miller’s words.
Not a symbol.
Not a martyr.
A man struggling to remain truthful when fear had become
more powerful than truth itself.
Then one evening, after a performance, I walked out the
stage door.
An elderly gentleman wearing a bowler hat was waiting for
me.
His wife gently touched his arm.
“Don’t do this,” she whispered.
He stepped toward me anyway.
“What do you want?” I asked.
He said nothing.
Slowly…
he rolled up his sleeve.
Tattooed on his arm were the faded numbers from Auschwitz.
For a long moment neither of us spoke.
Then he looked directly into my eyes.
“You played Proctor as a Jew.”
I began to weep.
He had read me.
Then he asked quietly,
“Did you know they sold Jews for two golden candlesticks?”
I didn’t understand.
He was speaking about one seemingly insignificant exchange
in The Crucible.
Proctor tells Reverend Hale:
“Since we built the church there were pewter candlesticks
upon the altar… But Parris came, and for twenty week he preached nothin’ but
golden candlesticks until he had them.”
Most audiences hear a complaint about a minister’s vanity.
That survivor heard something else.
He had lived in a world where human beings themselves had
become less valuable than things.
Where people could be numbered.
Reduced.
Exchanged.
He wasn’t telling me how to play Proctor.
He was telling me that I had unknowingly told his story.
And suddenly…
I understood why.
Not because I had consciously set out to play Proctor as a
Jew.
I hadn’t.
I had played him through the moral imagination my father had
planted in me when I was eight years old.
Long before I understood his warning…
I had absorbed it.
My father recognized the pattern.
Arthur Miller gave that pattern dramatic form.
A survivor of Auschwitz recognized it in my performance.
Only then…
did I recognize it in myself.
Years have passed since that evening at Stratford.
Yet every so often, as I watch the public life of our
country, shadows race across my mind.
Not because history repeats itself.
It never does.
But because it sometimes rhymes in ways that make the hair
stand up on the back of my neck.
I hear echoes.
Not the same voices.
Not the same faces.
The same temptations.
The same seduction of certainty over evidence.
The same willingness to divide the world into the righteous
and the condemned.
The same temptation to mistake accusation for proof.
The same pressure to mistake loyalty for truth.
I do not mean that history has returned.
It hasn’t.
Every age is different.
Every leader is different.
Every crisis is different.
What returns are the moral questions.
The names change.
The century changes.
The human heart changes far less.
And in those moments, I find myself back in two places at
once.
An eight-year-old boy watching his father point at a
flickering black-and-white television…
and a grown man standing outside the Stratford Shakespeare
Festival while an Auschwitz survivor quietly rolls up his sleeve.
The years collapse.
The warning and the recognition become one.
That is why I still shiver.
Not because I believe history is repeating itself.
But because I know how easily the human heart forgets what
it has already learned.
My father saw one such moment.
Arthur Miller gave it dramatic form.
A survivor recognized it in me.
And whenever those old shadows pass across our common life,
I cannot help but remember my father’s finger pointing at the television…
and wonder whether we will recognize the warning—
even as history has already begun to shout the question.
Who are we?
It has taken me a lifetime to understand that my father was
not merely warning me about one man.
He was teaching me how to recognize a pattern.
He was teaching me that the health of a democracy depends
not only upon the character of its leaders, but upon the moral vigilance of its
citizens.
Some truths enter us before we possess the words to
understand them.
They wait.
Sometimes for years.
Sometimes for a lifetime.
Then one day…
someone who has suffered enough to recognize them…
reads us.
And suddenly the child, the father, the actor, Arthur
Miller, and the survivor become part of the same completed action.
That is why I shiver to this day.
Not because my father was right.
Not because the survivor praised my performance.
But because, in one unforgettable moment outside a theater
in Stratford, I realized that my father had not merely warned me.
He had formed me.
Stephen Macht